Hunting.

Tuesday night we started the apartment hunt. Well we started a few weeks ago, we looked online at places to live in Chatham and then with a sudden and quick change of events we started looking online in the Richmond Hill/Vaughn area.

The process is stressful. The thought of again drastically increasing our rent is stressful and the idea that I do not have a job during all of this is again stressful. I hate the feeling of being in transition. I want to work, but I want a job that means something. I also hate waiting to hear back. Life would be a lot easier if I knew that Brent would have the full time position in Richmond Hill. It would be easier also if he knew he wasn't going to get it and that we both were successful at the library in Chatham. But who knows. Apparently life is not supposed to be easy. *Shock!*

So the hunt began. I picked Brent up from work and in the course of 2 hours we visited 5 3 apartments. The first was out of budget when you added on all the extras, like parking and internet, the second we didn't hate, and the third we loved, kind of.

The issues we have come across are numberous. First, I am not working, I feel like I have no job prospects in the area despite my searching. I think I am going to try for retail, I would enjoy a non comission based retail at a store I actually like. But to find a job I need to know where we will be living to know where I can apply. (but all of that is besides the point). Without a job, it seams like no one will let us rent. I do not have a letter of employment. This is bad. Second, when looking at apartments I knew I had heard of the area Jane and Finch. I could not figure out why. I googled it and turns out its the area with the highest level of gang crime in Canada. No way we are living there.

So again we are searching for apartment prospects. We are searching, we are finding, but no one seems to want to call us back. I am starting to get depressed. I am frustrated because we are looking for yet another apartment in an area I do not want to live. I want to be home. I want to be in Chatham, or well anywhere other than Toronto. I hate Toronto.

We are still searching. Searching for jobs and searching for a place to live. The countdown is now at 8 days to figure out EVERYTHING!!!

Sorry, I am stressed. I just hope that in the next few days I can write an update that says everything will work out. Everything always works out. I just need to have faith. So join me in prayer. We need to figure out life.