OneMonthMore!

So I am currently working at the library, teaching people things like computers and ereaders. I have a love/hate relationship with this job. The love side is that I am employed, I work with great people and I love the library (why have I not spent more time here in my life?). The down side, it is stressful, the patrons are challenging and I am feeling drained and worn out.

I am a type A personality and I love order, routine and scheduling.  I love to work a consistent shift and this job is not even close. Some weeks I work Saturday, some weeks I do not, some days I work the late shift and others a normal 9-5, the lack of routine is getting to me. We do not always get brakes and it seems that the amount of work comes in waves and right now we are being sucked under. The inconsistency mixes with the fact that I realize  I am more of a person who loves to be alone in the forest, then a person to be teaching computer basics to people who will never remember it in an hour. Through this position I can certainly see that I am learning patience and acceptance and learning (failing, but trying) to not stress over the minor things.

Anyways enough complaining. I am very thankful I have work and on Wednesday I received the wonderful news that we will have our contracts extended an extra month. This means more time working and searching for something else. When we were asked if we wanted to extend our contracts the words my coworker said hit how I was feeling right on the nose 'I would love to, but I do not think Steph can handle the stress of another month.' He laughed at that, but I am serious about it. So where I am thankful for the work and it is truly showing God providing for me, I know in order to keep my sanity I am going to have to relax a little and find ways to enjoy work before I kill someone.

I am sorry, but I do believe there is such thing as being too old to learn. Like really, some of these people will be dead before they figure out how to send an email, please just keep using the phone. Ok that is the end of my rant. I am now deep breathing because even thinking about work is causing me stress. I am going to my happy place of ipads, ereaders and mousercising (if you have never mousercised it is wonderful, we found a website to teach mousing skills to people who are computer beginners, and in other words it keeps me calm because I do not need to be the one saying a hundred times to only click once and that they are missing what they are trying to click on. Google it.). These are the parts of work that I can currently mentally handle.

So this has turned into a rant, but in the end, yes I am thankful. I have a job and that is all I can ask for. Oh and did I mention that God just keeps bringing the blessings to our family because the husband also found full time work in his field and it is close to Chatham. Yes that meant that he left his position at the library and added more stress to me because I am the one who does the scheduling, however he now has a position in his field and for at least a year. We are happy because that means we might get to stay around Chatham for a while (which we love), and get to enjoy the apartment that we put so much hard work into.

Also, the good news kind of just keeps coming because yesterday we found out that his position comes with benefits. BENEFITS, can you believe it?!? I am so excited. I was always one whose parents had benefits, I had massage and chiropractor and all of my medicines paid for. It was wonderful while I had my headaches because I was able to test things out and try different methods to fixing the problem. I will again be able to have some of those little luxuries covered and I am all to excited for June when I will get my first professional massage in almost two years! God is good!