Okay, so as of late I have been struggling with being envious of the most random of people. Mainly fictional characters which really does not make a whole lot of sense. Especially because it is not in the normal ways. Like their life is so glamorous they have so much money and everything comes easy to them. No in the way that these people seem to have dreams and goals and passion. I do not remember the last time I was passionate and truly loved to do something that I could then in turn make a career out of it or at least fall on my face trying.
Dawson from Dawson's Creek for one. He knew from age 11 that all he wanted to do in life was make movie. Yes he at times questioned it, and was not always the best, but he knew what he wanted to do. Granted I am only on like season 3 so I don't know if he eventually gives up on it and decides to do something else, but at least he has a goal. Or Jenny from Gossip Girl for example. She has a passion for fashion and does everything she can to make it happen (yes I did just say 'Passion for Fashion' and loved every minute of it).
I am jealous and I want that passion. I want there to be something that I love, absolutely love to do and to be able to make that a career. I like nature and the environment, but so far I have not been successful in making that a career. I am also not sure if my love and passion for that is actually love and passion or I just figured I had summer jobs in it, I liked that the work was different every day and therefore I figured 'lets do this'.
So because of my lack of drive or passion, I am now making it my goal to figure out what the heck I am supposed to do. I am going to try and become more passionate about something significant, not just taking my tv watching very seriously. Any suggestions on how to make that at all possible are greatly accepted.
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